I stole this.
'At any point in time in a relationship, a quarrel/some sort of difference between the two parties will occur. And the distinguishing factor is really both parties' response to this difference. For the relationship to be strengthened or brought to another level of closeness, both parties' must be able to instinctively, without need for discussion, somehow find in themselves the need and ability to agree to disagree and then move on, knowing, appreciating and even loving the differences between themselves.'
...and realized it makes perfect sense which I've been trying hard to put into words.
I've written myself an extremely bitter post about 2 days ago, about a part of my emotions that I rarely visit, and do not wish to change that trend in the future.
I'm glad I've marked that post as Private (teehee you can't see it) but nah, I'm not wishing that you had either. I've been through that thought so that's not going to bother me now, for the timing being at least, all for the better. I love moments of self-discovery and revelations, even when they're not that eventful at times. It helps, with the emotional maturing thing, and growing up in general I guess.
Alright shall go figure out now how to have a meaningful year-end holiday, while staying here. (no more Europe trip. D:)
I really do hope it works this time, in however many senses this may come across as.
More trivially, it's 2am. I do not like being awake at this time why am I even awake now and probably for a while longer?! Evidently, being awake at this time is not good because it makes me hungry, unusually energetic which also means unusually deadbeat tomorrow, and tend to think about too many things that make me more confused.
Just finished a book - The Other Hand, by Chris Cleave. It tells the story of a short-lived journey of a Nigerian girl in the UK, and her complex background. Its perspective's rather refreshing, but I do not fancy the ending very much because it did not give me hope. Does it make me naive/less mature to expect a happy ending from every story that I read/watch? Not all stories necessarily need to end with grand reunion, but I dunno, it'd be better if they give the readers hope? Does it ring a bell? Or, at least not to destroy the accumulated hope that's built up from the start. And..maybe it's just me and me against all dark&evil in this world.
There're quite a number of things to be settled, especially it's now Post-Promos period and will remain as that for a while, I'll need to do them one by one.
I still believe in being hopeful, it gives us wings.
1. Too many people have Nokia E63 now everywhere i go i see it especially in school my phone does not feel unique anymoreeee haiz it's okay it has Fruit Stickers and a useless plastic cover.
2. PW is almost done omg cannot contain excitement and also cannot wait to let WR be submitted and most importantly cannot thank NFBMRA more we owe our lives to her for PW which sadly is not ending anytime soon but whoaa WR is like major accomplishment most of which are to be credited to PW-member stated above i think the rest of us need to redefine our life-purpose and direction.
3. Need to stop drinking iced drinks omg throat's red and swollen and bumpy and burningggg and did i just had a bubble tea eeee not helping at all but it was strawberry milk tea with egg pudding and auntie forgot to give me pearls it's okay i liked it still and of course throat's even worse now ouuuch.
4. Lesson learnt today when you get high while studying (for example if you like doing Chem/Geog/Maths/Econs/Etc very very much and keep doing it and think about it even when you're not doing it) around this period of time most probably means you have not been studying very hard for the past 9 months hahaha like today i did 5 hours of Geog and got very very happy for all the notes but sadly (why my points always end with sadly mm this's not good) it didn't last any longer after that and i felt even more excited after that sooooo decided not to do Geog anymore and so went to get bubble tea instead.
Shall stop at 4 points.
Just struck out date stated above off my calendar, it then dawned on me that there're exactly two weeks left to Promos? Not that it is anything near a scary thought since, well, we've been informed of the dates over two months ago, probably it is the fact that we've almost reached the end of JC1, and there's only a huge exam that's waiting for us at the end of it that is more intimidating?
I definitely cannot judge for most people, but personally it has been, so far, a year that has given me really little to reminisce. Not to mention that myself is probably part of the reason why things didn't turn out the best that they could.
Gonna drill in the thought that fourteen days can make a difference (always the case when I've slacked the entire year off ain't it) and I need to show to myself that it is possible yeah.
Okay 8pm get to work. :)
那时我们总有好多话
什么事都可以讲
经过了相遇挣扎
我还是无法将他放下
那是多久后的事了
有一天你突然问我
在那个时候是否也爱着他
我也很想他我们都一样
在他的身上曾找到翅膀
我也很想他在某个地方
我少了尴尬你少了肩膀
而夏天还是那么短
思念却很长
－ 燕姿，我也很想他
放心离开我
我会记得这一刻
那些还飞翔着
不可思议的梦
雨后的天后
会有绚烂的彩虹
像最初相信着
我们总会找到自由
这一刻 时间变成行李
越过生命悲喜 陪伴着我前进
因为你 让我看清自己
面对未知的恐惧
脚步更加坚定
只是远行 不是逃避
道别时为延续回忆永恒的华丽
你 要照顾自己
不要忘记 那些灿烂过的痕迹
- 燕姿，这一刻 The Moment
都三年了，你在那里还好吧，今天我们一起想起了你，想起了你的不辞而别。
说起了许许多多的如果，允许自己想了想如果你在，回是怎样。
但我们不怪你，因为我知道你一直都在，一直都在。
How long have I been in this storm?
So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head
And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fallAnd I will get lost into your eyes
I know everything will be alright
I know everything is alright
I can hear the angels crying in the air.
RIP.
Article on dwindling population in developed countries: "... (in the future) real estate prices will fall. That will hurt seniors (elderly) whose nest eggs are tied up in their homes, but it will be a boon to youngsters of the future. Who knows? Maybe the added space and cheap living will inspire them to, well, do whatever it takes to make more babies. Thus the cycle of life will restore its balance."
Wow. Hahahaa...
I love this conclusion for such an in-dept article studying population, fantastic link made don't you think? It looked on the most optimistic side of aging population and declining birth rates in population studies everrr.
...and stumbled upon this which's not supposed to be entertaining at all and I'd no idea why I read through the bio of the ministers these're my very-quick-7-concluding-statements:
1. 1 out 21 is female.
2. Most graduated from either RI, SJI, and/or NJC.
3. Many President's Scholars.
4. They read either Law, Medicine, or Engineering.
5. All are married with 2 or more children.
6. Special Highlight: Full names of Dr Ng's children are listed. (Whyy?)
6. Almost all enjoy playing golf.
7. Special Highlight: Mr. Yeo plays poor golf. (Poor golfing skills need to be made known?)
ok back to EoM zz.
In the midst of Part a) of an Econs essay after 3 hours, unfinished Maths assignment due tomorrow, one question into Chem Equilibria tutorial (Equilibria! Tutorial! Oh dear), two Geog Term Papers to be done, and one book to be read.
It makes me freak out at the pace at which I work now, and that involves just the academic requirements with nothing additional on my plate, and still somehow I seem to be constantly behind task? Sometimes I seriously wonder how inefficient I can possibly get.
Also, I guess at this point in time even if I refuse to, it's probably forced upon me to countdown to the Promos. Well I know it's almost mandatory for me to put in >100% effort this time round? Considering what happened at the CTs, and maybe the fact that all the genius brains I know in school now are working round the clock to prepare for the Promos, and it is publicly acknowledged that the papers this time round are going to be much harders with heavier contents, I deem it will be only logical for a tend-to-freak-out-during-exam-conditions-me to get work done early.
Okay here i dedicated another post to self-remind about urgency!! to start mugging again, please let it be effective because, well, I do not know other ways to let myself be woken up and there's probably no other alternative way to go about getting through Promos without feeling like killing myself afterwards.
You jiayou too!
I have new phone! So I am satisfied for the time being. :D
...and also really think it's time to get down to real serious mugging business clz stop living in dreamlaaaand.
